Memorial website in the memory of your loved one

The years of her presence are as short as a day. A day of her absence is as long as years.”           -Ibn Al Fharid.  

 

Please visit Lauren's other site....

http://lauren-pacenta.last-memories.com  
 


 

 This memorial site was created with love in celebration of the life of my beloved daughter, Lauren Pacenta, who was born in New York on October 04, 1988 and passed away on November 23, 2005 at the tender age of 17 years, one month and 19 days. Thank you for visiting Lauren's site, for the many candles that have been lit and the beautiful graphics.

It's so nice to know that we are in your thoughts.
Lauren was the only child of Jo-Ann Pacenta and the late Edward K. Pacenta. She was a 7 pound miracle who brought tremendous joy into our lives. Our lives changed with the birth of this beautiful baby, and we treasured her from the moment she was born.  For months I just wanted to sit and hold her. Priorities changed and she became the incredible focus of our lives. Watching her grow and change an
d go through the various states of childhood was wonderful - even the terrible twos, which were not so terrible. 

I will always feel truly blessed to be her mother. She was  very kind, thoughtful, and a loving daughter. She was always very  polite, she gave me beautiful, thoughtful gifts, wrote special notes, poems and letters to me. We enjoyed being together, and I have so many special memories. We shared so much, both the happiness and the heartaches. When her father passed away, and I would cry, she would hug me and say, "but you still have me." Oh how I wish that were still true. I miss her every moment of every day. She truly was the light of my life and filled my heart with love.
 Time moves in such strange ways now, all the days, weeks, and months, just blend together. Some days the urge to just see Lauren, or to hear her say even one word is so strong, I can hardly bear it. It is a pain no one can begin to understand, unless they’ve lost someone they love. For 17 years, one month and 19 days, I was blessed with a beautiful, loving daughter.

 Message from Heaven

I have not turned my back on you,
So there is no need to cry,
I am watching you from Heaven,
Just beyond the morning sky;
I have seen you almost fall apart,
When you could barely stand,
I asked the Lord to comfort you,
And I watched him take your hand.
He told me you were in more pain,
Than I could ever be,
He wiped his eyes and swallowed hard,
Then gave your hand to me;
Although you may not feel my touch;
Or see me by your side,
I've whispered that I love you,
While I wiped each tear you cried.
~Author Unknown~

Thank You for the beautiful poem LuAnn, mom of angel Bob Demartino

Lauren touched the lives of many with her kindness, compassion and joy for life. She was a daughter, a niece, a cousin, a friend, a girlfriend, and will be forever loved and missed by many.  Her time here was all too brief. She never got to experience graduation from high school, and she will never get to experience college or the love of a special husband and children. All the plans for her future that we spoke of so often are gone.

Created by my dear friend Maggie Lee

I light a candle every day
hoping the pain will fade away.
But with the light of each new dawn,
I realize you're still gone.
I miss you Lauren



May this candle burn forever in memory of my beloved daughter. I will love you forever and always Lauren, and I will cherish the memories of you.

 

To My Precious Daughter

I thought of you with love today, but that is nothing new
I thought about you yesterday and days before that too,
I think of you in silence I often speak your name
All I have are memories and your picture in a frame
Your memory is my keepsake with which I’ll never part
God has you in His keeping I have you in my heart.


 


(Thank you Jojo Tinkham, mom of ^i^ Carl.

If roses grow in Heaven
Lord, pick a bunch for me.
Place them in Lauren's arms
And tell her they're from me.
Tell her that I love her,
 and I miss her very much,

And when she turns to smile
Place a kiss upon her cheek
And hold her for awhile.
Because remembering her is easy
I do it every day
But there's an ache inside my heart
That will never go away.

~ unknown ~





Wishing you God's Peace and
many blessings
God bless

~ Jeri ~
(Laquan's mom) 


 My heart just breaks every time I see your beautiful smile.

It doesn't matter how long you've been gone,
Within our hearts you live,
Your love and joy and laughter,
Is the legacy you give.
I see your face in all that I do, but it is so hard to remember your sweet voice
We miss you Lauren

Time does not heal a broken heart.... It is so hard to accept that you won't come walking through the door yelling "I'm home mom."


Thank you for the beautiful graphic Judie,
 mom of Angel Craig Smart
A Message to my Daughter
We walked together, you and I
A Mother and her Daughter
We had Hopes and Dreams for tomorrow.....
But tomorrow didn't come.
We walked together you and I
We talked, we laughed we loved.
We shared so many happy times,
And for that I thank the Lord above.
We walked together, you and I
But only for a short time.
For all too soon it ended
Leaving pieces of a broken heart behind
And even though I miss you
More than words could ever say.
I thank God that I got to walk with you
Every precious moment of every day....
Thank you Irena Hill, it is truly a beautiful message.
http://kayleigh-erceg.memory-of.com


Dear Lauren
If I could have a lifetime wish
A dream that would come true.
I'd pray to God with all my heart
for yesterday and you.
A thousand words can't bring you back.
I know because I've tried.
And neither will a million tears,
 I know because I've cried.
You left behind my broken heart, and happy memories too.
I never wanted memories though,
I only wanted you.
~Author Unknown~


A butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam
And for a brief moment its glory
and beauty belong to our world
But then it flies again
And though we wish it could have stayed...
We feel lucky to have seen it.
........Fly free sweet angel.




To my precious Lauren

I miss waking you in the morning, knowing that you would always ask for 10 more minutes.

I miss when you would yell down to me to ask what time it was on the kitchen clock.


I miss you calling to me and asking me which shoes looked better with your outfit.

I miss standing across the kitchen island from you as you gulped down something to eat and I drank coffee in the morning.

I miss watching you pull out of the garage - I would throw you a kiss and you would wave and smile. 

I miss coming home and seeing your car in the garage, knowing you were home, or hearing the garage door open and feeling relieved knowing that you had arrived home safely.

I miss the text messages we sent to each other throughout the day.

I miss finding you online during the day and our messages to each other.

I miss coming home and seeing you on the computer or being home and knowing you were in the study on the computer.
 

I miss your loud music, which seemed to make the walls vibrate.


I miss our long talks, either riding in the car or when you would call me to your room or come into my room. I would rub your back and we would talk.

I miss our shopping trips, going out to dinner after church, watching movies together, making smoothies or hot chocolate, baking and cooking together.

I miss sitting on your bed, rubbing your back when you didn't feel well, or just sitting on the stool in your room talking to you.
 

I miss finding notes from you, sometimes in the morning thanking me for something or telling me your problems which were sometimes easier for you to write than to say.
 

I also miss you coming to me when you were upset over the shit happening in school. Even though we spoke of it often, I cannot even imagine how bad it was for you.
 

I miss kissing you good night and hearing you say "I love you Mom" and I would say "I love you too."


I miss your smile, the sound of your voice, the sound of your laugh and looking into your sparkling eyes.

More than anything I miss your presence in the house.

I would give anything to hear one more time: "I'm home mom."

I miss everything about you. Every day is so incredibly hard without you. It so sad that your life was cut short, and that you won't get to live the dreams you had for yourself.  I spray your favorite cologne and I immediately get a vision of you coming into the kitchen in the morning, always smelling so sweet. I never failed to tell you how good you looked or how good you smelled. I was always amazed that you asked my advise and actually liked what I said. Oh how I wish for another morning like those.

I miss you Lauren and I will love you always and forever - Mom



 IF I KNEW
If I knew it would be the last time,
that I’d see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly,
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time,
that I would see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss,
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time, I’d hear your voice…
I would video tape each action and word,
So I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I would be there to share your day…
I would not let it slip away.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance,
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you’re waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you’ll surely regret the day,
that you didn’t take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
And you were too busy to grant someone,
What turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them,
and that you’ll always hold them dear.

Take time to say “I’m sorry, Please forgive me;
Thank you; or It’s okay;”
And if tomorrow never comes,
you’ll have no regrets about today.
Author Unknown 

 
Sweet Memories

In quiet times I often sit
And find my mind adrift
To another place, another time
And oh! My spirits lift!

I see your happy, smiling face,
And that twinkle in your eye.
I hear you sing your favorite song
And I laugh...and then I cry.
 

Inside my heart Sweet Memories
Stay with me each day
I cherish, and I cling to them
For I miss you in every way.

Each thing I see...
Each thing I do, brings you close to me
For everything upon this earth
Brings Sweet Memories of you. 

I imagine our reunion
Some day at heaven's gate
It fills my heart with happiness...
But for now, I'll have to wait. 

Until my life upon this earth
And my work here is complete
Sweet Memories will keep me
Until at last again we meet
.
~ Charlotte Anselmo ~


This was the last picture of the two of us together!

Lauren wrote the following poem for me. What could be a more precious gift from a daughter to her mother than the following: 

Mama Bear
My best friend was always there for me when times got rough.
She was someone I could tell my secrets to and someone I could trust.
We shared our wishes, dreams, and fantasies,
We always liked the very same things.
We were together through laughter and together through tears.
For both of us, our friendship is so very dear.
When I needed help she was always there.
When I was upset, she always cared.
Sticking together through school years of hell,
I then knew that we were gonna be best friends always & forever.
Our friendship was like a fairy tale straight from a book.
Not a flaw anywhere, no matter where you looked,
the way a best friend should be forever and ever.
Our love so strong for one another
I'll always love my best friend, for she is my mother.
(©Lauren Pacenta 2005)



Thank you Tina, Mom of ^i^Michael Grayson

Lauren was a warm, compassionate, and loving young girl who will be and is truly missed. She is deeply loved by her family. May God continue to send his healing love to her family and friends.
We miss you Lauren

Thank you Dianne White, mother of precious angel Nicholas. This is so beautiful and incredibly thoughtful. ((many hugs to you))

Lauren was born on a Tuesday, and according to Mother Goose, "Tuesday's child is full of Grace." And she was. When she entered this world, she brought amazing love and happiness to all of us. She was a gift from God, perfect, with 10 little toes, 10 tiny fingers, a tiny bit of hair, and puffy cheeks. We felt truly blessed. 

I loved her from the moment she was placed upon my chest. Love grows, and as she entered each new phase of her life, I read whatever I could so I would be  prepared and maybe understand what she was experiencing.  I was and am so proud of her, we had a wonderful relationship, except for the normal mother-daughter disagreements and some major battles that go along with the teenage years. Whenever we had a disagreement, I would ask afterward, "Now what could we have done differently so we would not have had to fight or What could I have said differently........."  It used to drive her crazy when I did this, but we learned from it.  We never went to bed angry and we always said "I love you" to one another before going to bed.  It was so important to both of us.  When she was younger, we always read before she went to sleep, I remember the night she asked if she could read. It may seem insignificant, but it was one of those changing milestones in her life and mine.  After that she would read most nights, unless she was really tired, then we would take turns. She loved animals and her favorite book was about dogs. We read it over and over and over and over.....

Since she was an only child, I wanted to involve her in activities where she would have an opportunity to socialize with other children. We joined a play group when she was very young and this group stayed together for several years, planning our schedules around our playgroup. She went to nursery school and spent many happy summers at Camp Kiwi in Mahopac, NY.  Most of all, she loved our neighbors (Alicia, Nina, Nicky and Maria)  and spent countless hours with them. She thought of them more as an extended family than friends. She dearly loved them as well as their parents.


Where is Nicky??

Lauren graciously gave us seventeen years of memories and smiles. As she grew into a beautiful young woman she continued to carry her childhood outlook on life with her..... She left us with her gifts of compassion and caring.   Lauren was bright, athletic, beautiful, funny and had a smile that would light up a room. 


Graphic by Angel Kelli George's mom, thank you Lorraine...


She was always ready for a New Adventure
For Lauren, life meant that there was always something exciting to discover, and close friends with whom to spend that precious time.  She loved just being a kid, dressing up in goofy outfits with Charmene and Cassie; playing ding, dong, ditch; jumping from the snow to the Hot Tub; wading through creeks looking for frogs; searching for bugs in an open field, or running through the neighborhood to visit her friend Derek or down the hill to Ben's, Brittany's or Tasha's. She and Erin and Ben wrote and performed plays at our house and video taped them.  They had such fun and I really enjoyed watching the videos!  We have a trampoline in our back yard, there were many times I looked out the window and saw kids laughing and jumping, but as she got older, there were more times when they surrounded the trampoline, leaned back on the net, just sitting and talking.



She loved animals, flowers and nature .... 
She loved animals and brought baby rabbits, birds and a tiny kitten home to nurse and heal. She had pet rabbits, gerbils, and even tried to bring little white mice home as pets.  She thought she was saving them, because they were to be food for the snakes. We tried to release these little mice in fields, but she and her friend Charmene kept coming back to the car with the little white mice hidden in their coats, and giving themselves away with their giggles.

 Whenever we got a new puppy, it was for Lauren.  Somehow we ended up with four dogs.  Sadie was the one that was truly hers.  Lauren fed her, trained her and loved her.  After Lauren passed away, our Samoyed, Izzy, started taking walks. She had never left the property until then. I think she was searching for Lauren. Sadly, Izzy, passed away several months after Lauren. Lauren often said she didn't remember life without Izzy. Lauren was 17 and Izzy was 15. They were together for a long time.

 Lauren also loved flowers, especially sunflowers and daisies.  We  planted sunflowers in our garden and the following year we waited for them to appear, not knowing they were annuals.  There are fields of sunflowers around here and she loved to see them.  She also liked lilacs and would cut them to bring in the house for their sweet scent. Lauren was so disappointed when we moved and had to leave the lilac bushes behind. She loved bringing me flowers, even though sometimes they were from someone else's garden.


Graphic by Cheryl Roy, mom of Angel Kyle Roy, thank you Cheryl...


Lauren died in her senior year, and did not get a chance to graduate. The school, however, did grant her a diploma. I was in such pain, I was 500 miles away and my two nieces accepted the diploma. There was a standing ovation when Lauren's name was read and my nieces accepted her diploma. Thank you to the class of 2006.

Thank you for the beautiful angel Dianne
Mom of ^i^ Nicholas White.

Dear Lauren,
I hope you know how much you are cherished and how deeply you are loved and missed.

Thank you Monica Davis
Mom to Angel R.J. (Robert Joshua) Davis
 

Thank you to my dear sister Crystal
When Lauren was younger, she and her cousins, Nick and Dylan, would spend hours blowing bubbles. We bought the stuff by the gallon. They laughed and enjoyed themselves tremendously.

They also played spy games with equipment we had bought for them. They could hide and listen to our conversations, but we always knew they were there, hiding, because they gave themselves away with their giggles.



She loved baking!

Oh, how she loved her art!





When you were born you cried
and we rejoiced.
When you died you rejoiced
and we cried.


For Lauren's angelversary by Melissa Scatto, mom of angel Micheal Scatto





To My Beloved Husband, Ed:    
 You are forever in my heart and I love you today and everyday. You were and are my soul mate.  Lauren and I talked about you every day of her short life. I wanted her to know all about you. She was so young.  One Christmas when I was missing you so much, our dear Lauren gave me a photo display of you with the words "When someone we love becomes a memory, their memory becomes a treasure."  You would have been so proud of her. She was kind, compassionate and very loving. She was also so much like you. We loved you and I miss you both so much. Please be with her.


Artwork by Thomas Kincaid

Lauren knew how much I loved Thomas Kincaid and bought me a book titled "The Home You Made for Me". A beautiful book of artwork by Thomas Kincaid, and inspirational quotes, poems and Bible verses. It was truly a thoughtful and beautiful gift.

"Oh what a power is motherhood, possessing a potent spell. All women alike fight fiercely for a child."
~EURIPIDES~
Maybe that is why she called me "Mama Bear"


Thank you Candy Lynch, mom of ^i^ Kelly


Because of the tender mercy of our God...
     the rising sun will come to us from heaven
to shine on those living in darkness
     and in the shadow of death,
to guide our feet into the path of peace.
                                                Luke 1: 78-79



This was Lauren's favorite picture, she has it as the background on her computer.


Oh how Lauren loved being with her father. She loved to help him outside, to watch and help him in the garden and to cut wood for the fireplace. He cut the wood small, it worked better in the fireplace, but also Lauren was able to help him carry the wood. I would stand at the window and watch the two of them, with such love and pride in my heart.  After her father passed away, she would smile and just be so proud when I told her how much she resembled her father - she loved the things he loved .  He was a terrific chef, and Lauren was very creative, loved cooking and baking.  He loved to read poetry and she loved to both write and read poetry. she loved the food he loved, ...and the list goes on. ..How does a child ever come to terms with the loss of a parent at such a young age?

The two loves of my life, gone from this earth, but not from my heart.
Tear drops with roses - oh how many tears I have shed over the loss of my two loves, and
roses have always symbolized love. 

 




Isn't she precious!
********************
I Still Feel Your Love
I know you’re gone from this earth
You left me way too soon
But I feel your love every time
I gaze up at the moon.
Sometimes I think I hear
A whisper in the wind
It sounds as if you’ve called my name
As your love to me you send.

Sometimes I do a silly thing
And your laughter fills my ears
I know you’re right here with me
But I can’t see you through my tears.
I felt your hand upon my shoulder
And I quickly turned to see
Visible... you were not
But I know you’re here with me.

In the night you sometime come
To visit in my dreams
My hands go out to touch you
But you’re just out of reach it seems.
For just a flash you appear
Standing close to me
Is it just my imagination
Or is it really you I see.
Even though you’re gone from me
And you watch me from above
I long for you everyday…
And I still feel your love.
~ Charlotte Anselmo ~

When all is said, when all is done,
I will remember you with love.
When all is said, when all is done,
You will be in my heart forever.
I will remember you...
Remember you with love.
~ Paul Alexander Music ~



Thank You Cathy Giraud, mom of David Giraud 


Her Smile is in the Summer
Her grace is in the breeze
She did not leave, she is not gone
It's only we that grieve.

It doesn't take a special day
To bring you to our minds
A day without a thought of you
Is very hard to find.

No longer in our hearts to share
But in our hearts you're always there
The parting and the heartaches
No one can ever heal
But our memories for safekeeping
No one can ever steal.
~ unknown ~
(Thank you to the parents of Vanessa Borg)

School....................
Throughout her years in school she tried many activities. She tried music, playing various instruments, encouraged by a teacher who is no longer at the school. Her braces and other oral appliances made it difficult for her to continue. She also tried concert choir, but finally decided music was not her thing, although she did take guitar lessons and enjoyed the guitar.
She took gymnastics and had great potential, but when asked to train for competition, we decided it was too much of a time commitment. She played soccer, tried tennis but found her sport in running, particularly cross country. She seemed to peak in her junior year. She loved being part of the team and she enjoyed her teammates.


My Cross Country Runner!!
She also ran track and lettered in track when she had mononucleosis, which was quite an accomplishment. She loved to ski and was a member of the school's ski club. She especially loved skiing with her friends Eric and Stephen. On one of our vacations, she tried bungie jumping. I was so afraid for her, I couldn't watch, but she loved it and went again and again.



She loved writing, poetry, photography and she loved her first job........
She was a creative writer, and for a long time wanted to be a journalist when she graduated. She loved poetry and wrote many poems. Unfortunately she threw away many of her poems and short stories, because she didn't think they were very good. She also enjoyed taking photos and was always asking for a new camera or equipment, and of course borrowing mine. In the spring of 2005 she got a job at The Purple Cow and loved both the job and the people with whom she worked. She was looking forward to returning in the spring when they reopened.

Lauren wrote the following poem, which was included in her funeral service. A few months following her death, I submitted the poem to the Faulkner Society Literary Contest (Poetry). She (her poem) was a finalist in the competition. I am so proud of her and I can just imagine how excited she would have been.

Leaves in the Wind
Now in this late hour, I look back and feel
the winds of time roaring past.
Wishing for things that could never be,
seem now like leaves of Autumn
gathering and then gone with the wind.
Bits and pieces of time, pictures in my
mind, only I can see.
All here one day and then gone the next.
Beware, all who tread here,
for time is precious, and if not well spent,
will scatter like leaves in the wind.
By: Lauren Elizabeth Pacenta © 2005

(I am so incredibly proud of you Lauren! I wish your teachers could have seen your talent.)


Lauren's car
Oh how she loved to drive..............
When she turned 16 she couldn't wait to get her permit and learn to drive. Within 7 months she had her license and was driving. She loved to drive and it gave her such a feeling of independence, but of course it caused me concern as I am sure it has many other parents when their children begin driving. I always stood in the garage and watched her pull out and leave. I would blow her a kiss and she would look back and smile. I missed driving her places and all the long talks we had on those drives.

She had Goals and Dreams.........
She was so excited about her senior year, running cross country, skiing with Stephen and Eric, graduating, and moving on to college. We had visited Marywood University
just two weeks before her death and she was excited about going to Marywood and majoring in psychology. She had changed her goal and wanted to major in psychology and work with teenagers.

She loved her family and friends.................

Holidays were very special to Lauren and she always wanted to either have a picnic or party at home or travel to relatives to celebrate. We traveled to New Jersey many times to celebrate Christmas, Thanksgiving and Easter with her Uncle Kevin, Aunt Karen and she always loved being with her cousins. They were always so good to her. We also traveled to North Carolina to be with her Uncle Cliff and Aunt Jane and their family and she always enjoyed the visits and especially our shopping sprees in Raleigh. She has cousins in New York and we had not seen them for awhile and she was so excited when she and her cousin Kerry found each other on myspace. Nick, Dylan and Lauren spent much time together, playing games, spying on the adults and blowing bubbles




Lauren cared about people and tried so hard to help others, no matter if they were a close friend or just someone who needed help. I have received numerous messages from people who shared with me the kindness that Lauren showed them even when she barely knew them. I am so grateful to these people for sharing their experiences with me. Lauren's journal also has pages written about her friends and her concerns for them. 



One of our Special Talks........
One Sunday after eating out at one of our favorite restaurants, she and I sat on the curb (don't ask me why) and talked about her relationship with this boy and my dating relationship with her father.  When I talked about her father, she was so surprised, because she was so much like him, and I was more like the boy she was dating.  We laughed and hugged and this talk remains forever in my treasure of cherished memories.  We talked often about many things and events in her life and eventually she would tell me almost everything.  For that I am truly thankful (although at the time I may not have been excited about what she was telling me).  She truly cared about people and was generally very trusting and forgiving. 

Two Friends
In addition to Eric, Steven and Derek, Lauren had a very dear friend whom she lovingly referred to as "jdweb".  He sent her roses for Valentines Day, six peach colored roses. She cherished them and they are still in her bedroom.  Not only were they the first flowers she received from a boy, but in her journal, she said he was the first boy who told her she was pretty.  I don't know if he remembers, but to her it was so special, made her incredibly happy, and she loved him for his special friendship.
 
In her junior year, she met a young man who became very special to her.  She cared deeply about him although they had their ups and downs.  Whenever she came home after being with him, her eyes would sparkle and she would tell me how he was her "soul mate" and someday she was going to marry him. He was always there for her when she needed him. He gave her a single red rose, which she kept moving from room to room in the house, it too remains in her bedroom.


My Beautiful Daughter and Kevin at the prom
Thank you Kevin for always being there for Lauren



Hugs From Heaven
When you feel a gentle breeze
Caress you when you sigh
It's a hug sent from Heaven
From a loved one way up high.

If a soft and tender raindrop
Lands upon your nose
They've added a small kiss
As fragile as a rose.

If a song you hear fills you
With a feeling of sweet love
It's a hug sent from Heaven
From someone special up above.

If you awaken in the morning
To a bluebird's chirping song
It's music sent from Heaven
To cheer you all day long.

If tiny little snowflakes
Land upon your face
It's a hug sent from Heaven
Trimmed with Angel lace.

So keep the joy in your heart
If you're lonely my dear friend
Hugs that are sent from Heaven
A broken heart will mend.
~ Charlotte Anselmo ~



We miss you Lauren
It doesn't take a lifetime to love someone who is special. Sometimes it's a single memory or just a moment in time that endears them to you forever. Lauren was one of those people.  Her untimely death has left her family and friends with broken hearts.  We all miss her so very much.  She is always there in our memories and in our hearts.

 As Lauren would say,

"Peace, love and luck!"



Just a free spirit enjoying life.



 Lauren wore the pearls her father had given me to the homecoming dance.  At first I was afraid something would happen to my pearls, but I gave in and let her wear them, after all, I thought someday I would pass them on to her.  I am so glad she wore the pearls that night.

 When I see this beautiful angel, I think of my beautiful, blond Lauren always reaching for that elusive butterfly. Life was not always easy for Lauren and sometimes filled with disappointments, not the least of which was losing her father at such a young age.

I Miss You Lauren
I miss your laughter, fun and gentleness.
I miss the things I used to do for you.
I miss the time, now filled with emptiness,
When each day was a stage for something new.
I miss your love, though mine for you remains,
A passion with no outlet to the sea,
A teardrop in the desert, that contains
What's left of my maternal ecstasy.
I miss your presence, like a silent cord
That anchored even solitude in grace.
I miss, for my love's labor, the reward
On seeing some small pleasure on your face.
All these I miss, and yet they are all here
Within my heart, far more than I can bear.
~ Nicholas Gordon ~


Such a sweet face.  I love her and miss her so very much.

I love you too Lauren - always & forever..... 



I WILL LOVE YOU

As long as I can dream,
As long as I can think,
As long I have memory...
I will love you. 

As long as I have eyes to see
and ears to hear
and lips to speak...
I will love you.

As long as I have a heart to feel,
a soul stirring within,
An imagination to hold you...
I will love you.

As long as there is time,
As long as there is love,
As long as I have a breath
to speak your name...
I will Love You,

Because I love you more than anything...
In all the world.


  ...Thank you my sweet friend Maggie Lee



Thank You Melissa, daughter of Irwin and Renee Eiler



The following poems were written by my dear friend Camille, Thank you Camille and thank you to the family of William Scott Myers for the beautiful graphic.
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There is an angel up in heaven
A young child's life to God was given
Leaving us something special
a gift from the heart
a joyful spirit that gives us hope
that we will never be apart
©2006 Camille Olive
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There is a star up in the sky
A young life ended "Too soon" we cry!
A beacon of hope for those in need
"My life hasn't ended, can't you see?
I am an inspiration of your love
shining down from up above
I am the joy inside your heart
 and  not the sadness that keeps us apart
Go on with life and please be happy
don't let your grief be my memory
My spirit will live on
it was meant to be
I want you to know
That I am free"
© 2006 Camille Lombardi-Olive

Lauren loved the ocean and the beach and looked forward every year to our trips to the beach.  We had so many happy times.  Sometimes it was just family and other times it was family and Lauren would bring a friend. She loved swimming in the ocean and building sandcastles.  For me, trips to the beach will never be the same without her. 
Playing her air guitar.

She loved life and lived each day to the fullest. She enjoyed just being a kid.

Thank you Dianne
Mom of ^i^ Nicholas White
Lauren loved sunflowers, this is beautiful


Sunflowers and Daisies - Her favorite flowers.
 
She often said she should have been born in the 60s or 70s. She liked the music and liked the styles of that time period.




My mom is a survivor,
or so I've heard it said.
But I hear her crying late at night
when others are in bed.

I watch her lay awake at night
and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her
to help her understand.

But like the sands upon the beach
that never wash away...
I watch over my surviving mom,
who thinks of me each day.

She wears a smile for others...
A smile of disguise.
But through heaven's door
I see the tears flowing from her eyes.

My mom tries to cope with death
to keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her,
knows it is her way to survive.

As I watch over my surviving mom...
Through heaven's open door
I try to tell her that angels
protect me forevermore.

I know that doesn't help her
or eases the burden she bears.
If you get a chance, go and visit her...
and show her that you care.

For no matter what she says...
No matter what she feels
My surviving mommy has
a broken heart
That time won't ever heal.
-Author Unknown

(A beautiful Graphic by Edwina Mitchell, Troy Mitchell's mom)

 
Afterglow
I'd like the memory of me to be a happy one
I'd like to leave an afterglow of smiles
 when the day is done.
  I'd like to leave an echo whispering softly down the ways,
of happy times and laughing times and bright and sunny days.
I'd like the tears of those who grieve,
to dry before the sun
 of happy memories that I leave behind when the day is done.
Author Unknown

LAUREN, YOU ARE FOREVER LOVED 
 


Stairway to Heaven
If tears could build a stairway,
and memories were a lane,

We would walk right up to heaven,

to bring you down again.


No farewell words were spoken, 
no time to say good-bye.
You were gone before we knew it,
and only God knows why.

Our hearts still ache in sadness
and secret tears still flow,
What it meant to lose you,
no one will ever know.

When we are sad and lonely,
 and everything goes wrong.
We seem to hear you whisper
"Cheer up and carry on."

Each time we look at your pictures,
You seem to smile and say,
"Don't cry, I'm only sleeping,
We'll meet again someday."
Author Unknown


Lauren and Izzy
Hopefully they have crossed the Rainbow Bridge Together



"Mom, I just wanted you to know I am thinking of you.
For each time I see a beautiful

flower here in Heaven, I think of how
beautiful you are to me,
your daughter, who will always think of you
and know you are thinking of me too".
Love, Lauren ~ always and forever


(A beautiful Graphic by LaRaine Jimenez, mom of angel Cynthia Hernandez)


A Special Angel
There's a special angel in Heaven
That is a part of me.
It is not where I wanted her,
But where God wanted her to be.
She was here just a moment,
Like a night time shooting star.
And though she is in Heaven
She isn't very far.
She touched the hearts of many,
Like only an angel can do.
I would've held her every minute,
If the end I only knew.
So I send this special message
To Heaven up above.
Please take care of my angel,
And send her all my love
~ unknown ~





May this candle burn forever in loving memory of my husband, Lauren's father, Edward  K. Pacenta.

Thank you - Angel Heather Bates family

Thank you for the beautiful angel Heather, my dear niece.
An Angels Wish
If God could give a special gift to me
I would bring you down from heaven
on your angel wings
And hold you tight within my arms
so strangers shadows could do no harm
I would sing from every mountaintop
And rejoice in my blessings
hoping they would never stop
My days would be so glorious
The two of us together again at last
But prayers can only bring back the memories
and not the person whose spirit could ease
The pain of our uncertainty
That live is truly better in Heaven's wake
Because providence never makes a mistake
When loved one's are called to fullfill a vision
A truly beautiful and miraculous decision
For the end is never truly over
Our lives will go on as we uncover
the love that spirits leave behind
A shining tribute to all mankind
Who hearken at the Pearly Gates
As we wait our turn, for it is never too late
And when we pass into the light
Our angel wings can finally take flight
Until we land in peaceful harmony
in a place where everyone is free

copyright 2007 Camille Lombardi-Olive

Thank you Rose - Grandmother of precious angel Brittany Syfert 

Thank you Judy of angel Charles Wildhagen

Angels exist, but sometimes they don't have wings, so we call them friends.  Thanks to my friends, to my family and to my late husband's family for your continued love and support.  Thanks also to my friends in GriefShare, the moms in our support group, Griefnet, OurAngelFamilies and PreciousMemorials, and Parents of Murdered Children without whose continued love and support, I don't know how I would survive.

I will always be grateful to the community of St. Andrews,  to Mother Lynn who was there to guide me, support me and plan Lauren's memorial service, for the prayer shawl ministry especially to Judy for the blessed prayer shawl, and to Father Dennis for your continued compassion, guidance and support, to our Deacon Kerry, to Father Peter and Liz and to all the wonderful parishners.  You will always have a special place in my heart. Thank you.......


Thank you Jeri, Laquan's mom
I wish I could hug all the wonderful people I have met through Lauren's memorial site, Angelfamilies and PreciousMemorials.




God, Grant that we may walk in your presence; your love in our hearts, your truth in our minds, your strength in our wills; until at the end of our journey, we know the joy of our homecoming and the welcome of your embrace, through Jesus Christ our Lord, Amen.


Forever in our hearts dear Lauren. 

 

 

Tributes and Condolences
Thinking of you always   / Mom
Missing you   / Mom
I Miss You Lauren I miss your laughter, fun and gentleness. I miss the things I used to do for you. I miss the time, now filled with emptiness, When each day was a stage for something new. I miss your love, though mine for you remains, A passion with...  Continue >>
Whisper From Heaven   / Cindy Oliva (Friends)
Whispers from Heaven They say that life is fleeting, I know that this is true. I left this world so quickly with no goodbyes to you. I know how much you miss me, Your tears fall ever nght, The pillow where you lay your head is wet with your tear...  Continue >>
Thinking of you always   / Mom
I lit a candle tonight, in honor of you Remembering your life, and all the times we'd been through. Such a small little light the candle made Until I realized how much in darkness it lit the way. All the tears I've cried in all my grief and p...  Continue >>
I miss you Lauren!   / Friend
Thinking about the day I found out that you were gone is still as hard as it was all those years ago. I remember every moment of that day. I remember being in complete disbelief that you were gone. In fact, I didn't even fully grasp your death until ...  Continue >>
LAUREN, ALWAYS AND FOREVER IN MY HEART <3  / CATHY~MOM OF DAVID GIRAUD     Read >>
Merry Christmas  / Lauren's Mom     Read >>
My beloved angel Lauren  / Mom     Read >>
Our Precious Angels  / Terriā™„Mom To Angel Brent Bowden (angel friend )    Read >>
For Lauren on your Angel Day 23/11/2005  / Irena Hill (Nanny to angel Kayleigh )    Read >>
Sending Autumn Blessings precious Lauren  / Janet (Mom To Nicholas Piccolo)     Read >>
Thank you  / Sharon My~*~Siobhan     Read >>
Never Forgotten  / Precious Memorials     Read >>
THINKING OF YOU SWEET LAUREN  / ROSE GRANDMA TO/ ANGEL BRITTANY SYFERT     Read >>
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPECIAL ANGEL  / LuAnn Demartino DeMartino (connected by angels )    Read >>
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